Dave battled with PTSD, anxiety and depression after a childhood trauma and a near-death experience in the Army

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When I came out of the army, I was, like I'd given up by that point
My name's Dave, and this is my story
I was born into a really young family, my mum was only 17
She left, and I was brought up by my grandparents
I started in the Scouts movement, where our Scout leader was a paedophile
There was no help that was given to us after those things happened and it became quite public
Trust was a big issue for me"
I didn't really trust people at all
I pushed everyone away, including like family and friends, and then a moment came in my life that I was like, "I need to do something different, I need to get away
The Army was escapism
It was a place for me to kind of discipline myself, and put myself on a new path, but I was still a young guy trying to deal with problems that men don't deal with in secular society well
And you're told to kinda toughen up, and all things that were just happening at that time, it went wrong, and I ended up in an accident which nearly killed me, and my military career was finished
It was just really dark
I suffered from post traumatic stress, anxiety, and depression
I had a friend through my job and she invited me along to church because she was singing one evening as part of the worship team
The second song come on and like something hit me
It was a little bit overcome with emotion in a sense
Like I was looking at people that I met that evening and just like how at peace they were
I found myself looking back and seeing times that I'd prayed, but I didn't know who I was praying to
And I just started to look back and see what I would call, "God Moments"
And just that parts of my life where that maybe god was really trying to get through and I was just rejecting it
And it got to the point I just couldn't question it anymore
Because everything I had asked for and everything I prayed for was happening
I never understood the concept of born again
You know, or you know the old has gone, the new has come"
You know I spent lots of time trying to get treatment and trying to help myself in ways, but none of that worked but like what did work was giving it over to God"
And you can hand it over and say, "I can't deal with this
But I want you to
And to me, that's what I did and that's what Jesus exactly did is took that from me
As time has gone on, people have been more inquisitive and more people have come to church with me
And more people are seeing all the positive things that God has done in my life
And I think that people can't question it when they see the good that comes from Jesus